Sawyer's first birthday

We let balloons go for you.

Sadie gave you a beautiful windchime with tiny dragon flies.

Mommy and Daddy read poems. We all sang "Happy Birthday" and watched as a hawk circled gracefully above.

After dinner, we went back to the cemetery. It was dusk. The sky turning from dark blue to black right before our eyes. Instant stars twinkling in the night sky.

I had to go back. I told you how sorry I was that on the day you were born, we never had the chance to see you. If I only knew Sawyer, I would have never left your side. I would have stayed with you every second of your tiny life and held your hand.

I know you are safe. I saw where you went, and each day here on earth is just one closer to being with you again. All of our love...