Saturday, October 2, 2010
Today, the Compassionate Friends posted this quote:
"Grief with purpose is an awesome force."
For weeks, other bereaved parents have asked me "how I can plan an event so big, so soon after Sawyer's death?"
And that quote is the answer I've finally found, but have never been able to put so perfectly into words.
During our garage sale today to raise more funds for our walk, I came inside to take a moment for myself. I walked over to the beautiful display case Erik built, with all of Sawyer's pictures and keepsakes neatly tucked inside - and I cried.
Through the tears, I told Sawyer about everything we've been doing. And that we're doing it for him and for all the other babyloss mothers and fathers out there who had their hearts - filled with so much hope and love - shattered, and broken.
I want to hold him. At night, I lay in bed thinking about the bassinet that should be next to me. He would be four months old now. Sweet and beautiful.
But he's not here.
And that's where the purpose comes from.