Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Triggers in the most unexpected places

I told a few close friends about this today, because I pretty much had one of those moments where I thought I was completely crazy.

I was with Sadie at Walmart (of all places) and we were shopping for veggies for a homemade pizza I was going to make later that night. I only had a $20 bill with me, so I had to be mindful of how much everything was costing us. I grabbed some green peppers, then a bag with three onions and weighed each one to get an idea of the price.

When I put the onions on the scale, it tipped just over two pounds. Actually, they weighed exactly 2lbs, 2oz - Sawyer's birth weight.

I was just standing there, holding the bag as it swung slowly, back and forth.

These stupid onions. These god-damned stupid onions!

I stood there with the bag in front of Sadie, tears in my eyes, asking her "How can these weigh as much as Sawyer? HOW?"

So I threw one back. I didn't want that last onion.

Triggers.

Mine were three onions today.

2 comments:

Wyatt's Mommie said...

You are not completely crazy. You nailed it right on the hand, Triggers. There are things that are always going to cause us triggers. Things that may only appear to be nothing to others that mean the world to us.

I think these triggers are what will allow us to always keep their memories alive.

Much love, Megan

Whittney Tomczyk said...

Agreed. Everything is too close to the surface, almost anything can bring it out.